Tuesday, October 27, 2009
I’m the girl who everyone said would achieve nothing!
I was the 16 year old girl, who never got invited to birthday parties,
I was the girl that boys said I was the ugliest girl in school.
I was struggling to fit in at school but then I had to go home to my home life that was a complete dysfunctional disaster!
I spent most of my time with my mum because my dad was never home and when he was it was far from fun times!
I couldn’t understand why this was happening to me. I hated school and home; the one place that was supposed to be safe was filled with chaos...
I felt trapped and the only way I knew how to deal with it was to keep myself busy with the things I loved, like painting and dancing it would help me forget even if it was for a short while the reality of my life.
It use to get so bad at home that many a times I didn’t want to wake up and face another day.
As I got older I not much changed only that I worked in a hairdressing salon as a receptionist. Then one day my boss suggested I do makeup so he could book weddings in his salon because I was creative that was perfect. Little did I know at the time this was going to soon become my passion.
My workplace I began to enjoy, but my home life was still turmoil.
One night so desperate I started to pray I said "God if you’re real, you need to show me and help change my situation because I cannot do this on my own"
Well the very next day my mum said to me "On Sunday we are going to try this funky church in Essendon. Apparently a lot of young people go there"
She knew I was struggling and it was her way of trying to help.
Obviously as an 18 year old my first reaction was to say NO but then I remembered the prayer I said the night before and I thought
"Gee! He must have listened and he certainly has a sense of humor”
As I went off to the "Funky Church" I would never have thought that 8 years later would still be going every Sunday! But now I go with my husband and 1 year old daughter.
In those 8 years my parents have separated and my dad ended up in jail and as many other trying times came my way, unlike before I knew what to do and I prayed "God I cannot do this on my own" so he pulled me out of that dark place, I think- he too knew I couldn’t do it on my own.
I felt like he didn’t magically appear or make my life all hunky dory but he gave me peace and greater understanding in that nothing material in this world would make me truly happy. Now I don’t look to things or people to make me happy or give me peace, I look to my manufacturer he knows me better than I know myself...
I love my job but I don’t look to it to bring me fulfillment, I love my husband with all my heart we've been married for 7 amazing years but he's only human, I absolutely love every part and cherish every second with my daughter and feel I can guide and protect her but she belongs to God.
So I guess what I’m trying to say is be careful what you put your faith in, I love my life because I’m truly free ....
Its not about the destination it’s about the journey... when I look back at my life I want to know I left behind a legacy.... you can do anything you put your mind to. Let me share something!
Myself and 3 other girls just raised $28,000 to build an orphanage in Kumi Uganda for 8 children and 2 widows I sold all my art work to raise funds, I am part of a team called Y-GAP which build safe homes for child trafficking and sex slaves in India. For me the more I focus out and realize its about more than just me in my little cotton ball world the more God builds me up on the inside and again helps me stay focused on what’s really important!
If your definition of achievement is-
• A high paid job,
• Fancy car,
• Having a wealthy husband
• A beautiful home and
• Lots of property
Then I am not successful! But one thing I know is the creator of the universe was looking after me when he plucked me out of the most insane circumstances and has blessed me with far more than I could ever imagine...
This is just a small fraction of my story what’s made me and what’s worked for me.
I know this may not be for everyone but one thing I know for certain is that God did reveal himself to me those 8 years ago and I’ve never been the same since!
And I know the best is yet to come.